I had a great meeting with a very wise friend yesterday. We talked about how society determines your value as a creative by your income/production. (Let's face it.. society determines your worth based on your "production" in every field, actually.) Then there are those questions that make me cringe a little, "Are you working?" and "What do you do?" Bleh...
Answering that question with, "I am an artist" is easy for me... I am an artist... so I feel comfortable saying that.. but I feel like I am so much more... all of which is difficult to label. (Labels.. you know.)
Dear, Readers, why am I telling you this? It's hard...it's really hard for me to accept the fact that I cannot sit here and paint all day. Honestly.. As much as I sit here and tell myself that I am painting for me...and I do paint what I want to... the feelings of doubt creep up every once in a while. I often wonder what I should be doing with my time. The best way that I have found to deal with the doubt is to talk about it with my friends, or write it here.
I wrestle with how much time to dedicate to running my business and how much time to use for making art. If time is limited, which task wins? Why does making art have to be a task in the first place?
I don't think there is anyone that can answer these questions but myself. I know this. I'm taking some time now every night to plan the next day.. I'll block out hours for art and block out hours for the business.. most importantly, I'll block out "free" time so that I don't feel overwhelmed..
Just so you know.... I'm also going to focus really hard on that elusive "three-foot ring toss."....
...and that's that.